Observation: Life

Hitting that point where I have more "up time" and less "down time". Like my sadness still comes at regular waves, I cry a bit, but it's getting shorter and shorter in duration. I can even talk to my ex now and not get pissed. We even joke a little and missing her is getting… Continue reading Ups and downs

I think back to when we lived on SoCo (South Congress to non-Austinites). I remember shopping at our little grocery store. I the sweet rides back, so giggly. Saying super silly over the top stuff like "Who makes the best steak, this girl! Suck it up buttercup". We made little snowmen and threw snowballs at the… Continue reading Remember that one time…when we were happy

Boy I need to really remember to sit down and type my thoughts. Anyways, I am able to see her without breaking down now. Thumbs up! I still want her back. She tried to hold my hand today and it took everything I had to not hold her hand back. I miss her so much.… Continue reading I still struggle

*Another random thought from 2010. I don't even remember this call. Total black out. What an absolutely delightful day! My partner had enough time today to catch a couple of hours of sleep in the back of the ambulance while I got caught up on the recent COG (Clinical Operating Guidelines) updates. In addition I… Continue reading Trollin’ for grandma

Thoughts from way back (many years ago), I miss my daily life that I had. Its strange being alone in an empty house. Thoughts racing through my mind on how to afford this house that my daughter has grown up in and all she knows. I miss my daughter running into my arms. Now its… Continue reading Day two