Observation: Life

This baby...didn't ask for this either. Somehow I have to remove this block. Supervisor: Que tears on set Good news I stayed home all day, inside. I just listened to music and did work. No break down or nothin'.

I stopped crying. It was day 8. I have had a few moment where I would water up but what they say about breathing...it really works. I talk with my friends about this and I came to the agreement ( I am trusting their judgement now, mine sucks apparently) that hypothetically if she were to… Continue reading The start of moving on

Are you sure you want to do this? No Wanna get counseling? What if it doesn't work Then that's it I suppose I'm just not happy, The End ......... oh did I mention crying? There was crying cause we still love each other but we still have to break up. *Talking through teeth* Ok that's… Continue reading The “Last Talk”

Didn't go well. I managed to disintegrate right in front of her. Winning! It's really hitting me. She is leaving me. She is really leaving me. What do I do now...breath! ok, done now what....do it again and remember to blink. Side note: I need to get tissues

I am not getting back out there but I am making new friends. Had a couple of good connections that were refreshing. Nice to be able to talk to another adult about deep ideas. No, not FWB. I know I am not ready by a long shot