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Fired Tinder back up.....what a fucking waste of time.

Is it obvious that I am angry. Why so angry? And who put my emotions on a yo-yo string. I still haven't made it a full day without crying. I miss her. Why is she doing this to me? What a bitch! Fuck her! No......no I didn't mean that. Why does that happen so fast?… Continue reading Anger

I still wish her good night. in all my fury I still absolutely without a doubt love her. I can't kick her out. She is having my baby. So we agreed to delivery and then she moves in with her grandparents up a few miles north. cought myself in a moment ... I was rationalizing… Continue reading Coming to terms

I realized something, I over came a lot just to be in this relationship. I worked on my insecurity issues (still am), learned to be mindful of the other person, Learned to love unilaterally, I can tickle backs, rub feet, start baths, do laundry, wash dishes, feed the dogs, change her oil, pay the bills,… Continue reading The phase of my mind fuck [Realization]

I start listing the stuff I do. It's a barter right? Cause that is the only thing that makes sense, right? There was no talking, no therapy, some mix signals for sure but all workable. I think. shouldn't it be. My ex and I tried for ten years. To her credit she did hang in… Continue reading The phase of my mind fuck [Can I do this part over?]